shit

i dont feel myself right now.

im all crazy listening to my FULLY VOLUMIZED music.

and i just downloaded a buncha ghetto shitt and im dancing and singing and FUCKING screaming my lungs out.

shhhhhhhiiiiiiit.

dats what im talkin bout niiiiiiigga!

hahahahhahahasduifnasidfhoasdfa

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lsadkfjlkasdjfoa8fdo

SEXY HO IN DA CLUB ON DA CORNER IN DAT CAR

spending the money on a hoooooooo niiiiiiiiigga

whatcha whatcha gonna do whatcha

i wanna try COCAINE and MARYJOOWANNA!

someone get it forrrrrrrrrr meeeeeeeeeeee

also, can someone shoot me in the head or something por-favor?

:)

latttttttaaaah mudder penetrators!

does anyone still watch HOME IMPROVEMENT?

i stay up every night just to watch it at midnight.

i really need to start buying the dvd's cuz i need to get used to sleeping earlier.

prom last saturday was.. no comment.

the music was all african american and ghetto.

the people were lame and immature (i couldnt believe how they were acting.. i cant believe i was like that once)

all i heard was "crush crush crushes" and dramaaaaaaaaaaa about him and her and her and him.

lame.

i hella dont miss high school anymore. psh. ok. ok.. i miss my last year but not really my experience before that.

shoot.

um, i didnt dance til the sun went down. i dont know who i danced with i was just dancing. no one really cared who they were dancing with... we were all just in a group.

i voted paris hilton "BEST DANCER" and voted me and paris hilton "BEST DRESSED COUPLE" and voted the asian people for king and queen. ha.

dinner... i dont remember.. i think i ate cereal.

i hella dumped candle wax all over my hand. that was erotic. oh, and it got on the table mantle, but o well.

and i took the whole box of strawberries at the snack place thingy with me when prom was over.

and the cookies were pretty good. i was just kinda hyper at the end cuz it suddenly got chilly and cold and i was all woo woo woo. and then i had a drink of some stuff there and i was like.. "hm that looks good" and i tasted it and SPIT IT OUT! i think it was tea or something.

it was so gross.

and then i drove home fast cuz MAD TV was on.

What do you do with a Jewish boy who's having trouble concentrating?

ANSWER/DUH:

You send him to a Concentration Camp.

Isn't my joke hilarious?

I really need this humor in my life right now.

It helps.

I miss my Baby Chloe!!!

 This is Jane now.  Chloe had an identical collar, only Red.
  
I'm going to spend as much time with Jane as possible because I'm going to regret it like I do with Chloe if I don't.

Chloe....... you were soooo cute... you looked like a mouse.
You were unique.  I miss you Chloe...
 
My Jane when she was only a puppy.  These were happy times, then came happier times with Chloe, and now it's the depressing time.  I love you Jane-y moy moy... I know you miss her too.

This was only 2 days before Chloe died.  Look how healthy she looks.  She used to jump on everything.
She jumped on all the vehicles in the driveway... even the trucks and it was so cute and she never got hurt and I'm going to miss her so much.  She was buried in her collar and a rose.
 
I'd open my sliding door so that the air would circulate in my bedroom and you couldn't get neither of these two to leave.  I'd feed them Skittles and got them addicted.  Chloe would just sit there looking at me with her puppy dog eyes and she was so calm.  She was just so well behaved.
Whenever I'd get into my car to leave for school she'd jump in and jump on my lap so I could play with her and say goodbye.  Then I'd come back from school and she'd be the first one waiting at the gate and when I drove in she'd jump in and lay on her back so I could scratch her belly.

The car rug and part of the seat still has her little white fur hairs on them.

I don't want to take them off because she left it like that and I want to have her with me when I drive places.

She'd always eat my newspapers in the backseat.

I remember one time I took her with me to pick up some prescription drugs at the pharmacy and she growled & barked at the pharmacist and I laughed and then driving back I rolled down the window and she stuck her head out and loved it (I could tell).

I miss you CHLOE!!!!  I miss you so much baby.  I love you baby.  Jackie loves you baby.  I miss you... I miss you so much!!!!!!!!

My tears belong to you.  I miss you.

I'll never forget how you always left your paw prints on the roof of the car. 

I'll never forget how you'd dig under the fence to the neighbors yard to see your boyfriend.

I miss you Chloe.

GOODNIGHT baby.

I hope Jane never dies because I'm gonna really die then.

I basically just left my best friend a comment with everything that I'm feeling right now so here it is:

I wanted so much to call the vet but it's as if I already knew it was too late.

Goodnight baby. (2006-2007)

My baby Chloe passed away this morning at about 12:50 AM.

I was there.

It was painful.

It hurt me so much.

I heard her struggle for last few breaths.

I saw her look at me and die.

She died with her eyes open.

I miss her so much.

I'm so depressed and sad right now.

I want to kill myself.

It's not the first time I'll try it this year, since Anna Nicole died.

But when I take whatever pills I find in the medicine cabinet I think about my mom, my dad, my sister.

I don't want them to suffer my death.

REST IN PEACE CHLOE.

I LOVE YOU.

I'll cry for you every day.

I'll think about you every day.

GOODNIGHT BABY.